Bad News Doesn't Stop For Good Days

So, I was all gung-ho about my online release party tonight, but had to postpone it, because about 10 mins before I was about to go on, as I was applying some make-up and changing my shirt, I got some bad news and I suddenly didn’t feel like throwing a party.

Bad news doesn’t stop just because you’re having a good day.

So, my father’s health has rapidly declined.  Long story short, his heart is now only working at 15-20% strength, and he’s going to begin hospice care at the home tomorrow.  Code for “keeping him comfortable until his heart stops.”  What’s frustrating is that this is apparently “indefinite.”  He could go any day, OR he could go in several months.  It’s the not knowing that’s the worst bit.  Actually, there are a couple of things competing for the Worst Bit:

* I was just thinking “I haven’t seen my dad in a while!  I think I’ll visit this weekend!”  Now, I have to.  And I’m going with my brother tomorrow.

* From what I’ve been told, my dad is barely responsive right now.  I was told “He responds to his name, but that’s about it.”  So, I’ve waited to see him, and now he might not even know that I’m there.

* I feel bad about being disappointed that I couldn’t do my book party tonight.  As if that’s in any way important by comparison.  But it was to me, and I was really looking forward to it.  The thing is, my dad is a writer, and if anyone would understand the importance of that event, it’s him.

Well, there’s nothing I can do until tomorrow.  Needless to say, Teatime With Teresa has also been canceled tomorrow, as I’ll be going to see my dad then.  I was debating whether I wanted to blog about this…but I’m a writer, and this is how I deal with things.  So, there.

You should know, however, that copies of On The Ground Floor ARE available for purchase if you want one.  I would’ve liked to announce it with more fanfare, but there you are.  Check out the details at the link in my sidebar.

Also, I have a new Facebook fan page.  If you’re already my friend on Facebook, do me a solid and “Like” my fan page, as I’m hoping to eventually have THAT be the place where I post my writing links and stuff, so I can keep my personal FB page separate (though they’ll probably never be completely separate…). And, as I only friend people on Facebook that I’ve met IRL, for the rest of you, this is my only Facebook presence, so head on over there.

Tonight, I’m doing laundry, drinking Mike’s Hard Lemonade, and eating ice cream.  That’s about the extent of what I feel like doing right now.  My phone won’t be back up and running until tomorrow, but if you know me, I certainly wouldn’t mind Gchatting tonight. 

Oh, and after Jerry’s done watching Supernatural, we’re going to play some Rock Band.  Which is good, as I usually play the drums, and I could really stand to hit something repeatedly right now.

If anyone has an in with Tony Stark and can get my dad an arc reactor, that would be awesome.

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